Hearts with Kisses (: (('(0 0)'))

2008-03-31T04:26:00.002+08:00

I'm back! (:
A new day and a fresh start aheads.
Woke up in the morning after hearing my mum's nagging. Seems rathered frustrated, trying to pull myself back to bed, but i could not. So, i woke up, but found out that where have mylove gone to? Why didn't he appear infront of me when he promised to bring me to consult a doc. At that point of time, i was extremel pissed and angry. I wonder is it promises are meant to be broken? Or the love i gave to him was not good enough, or even is it because of his tiredness. I called him, but to no avail. I guess he would be sleeping like a log.

To be continued.....
sleeping now. zZzZzZZZZzzz.
Sorry guys out there, i didn't mean it. (:

2008-03-30T03:13:00.003+08:00

Hey yo, back again bloggers! (:
want to know the reason why? Because mylove wants to read it. Haha. (: So, i back here to blog. Today, woke up late because the previous night, i slept later than what i expected. After which, woke up and saw a messaged from mylove at 13:38pm. He messaged me with uncountable pages and as i read, i almost teared. It touches my heart and i love him deeply. It's the love that comes to us and we are down on our journey. Soon after, i meet mylove up at tpy. We tuck in for lunch, i ate kuay teow noodles and mylove ate laksa. Then, we headed to chinese medical shop. Wanted to get skin treatment to apply for my skin. It really iches me to the extend that i could not take it. I really wanna get smooth and nice skin mann! :( Consulting a doctor soon. I meant later. (:

Went to work at tpy pasar malam. Started work at 18.30p.m. Worked till 22:00p.m, and the pay was like fucking little. 5 dollars per hour. At the end of the day, it was only like $17.50. Fucked up man!! Did something stupid there and can say that we're sacked half way. Damn stupid idiot. Headed up to tpy Mac` to talk things out with mylove abt what happened just now. Then, to tpy interchange to meet ming kuang. (:

Nevertheless, mylove and i created some misunderstanding and there goes our quarrells again. Miscommunications and misconceptions were the main problem and most importantly our personality. Stubborness and bad attitude are also another one of the concerns. Pick up a fight and afterall we're back again. The love we made can really never be erased. I love you, sweetheart. (: Headed near my house there to eat and then home sweet home. I really do miss him alot, but does he know all about it. I really dont know. ;(

Conferencing on the phone with mylove and jason. It's all about working relationship in this society, trust even. I really don't know. Seems rathered confused now and then. No suitable jobs overall. Stressed!

Okay2, i think i'm gonna of to bed soon. Haha. LOL. quite tired and the itchyness coming to bother me again. Fuck!

Goodnights darlings, esp to mylove right now at pasir ris park. (;
Baby, i'm waiting for you to bring me to consult a doctor tml.
Miss you lots`
Huggs&muacks! (:

2008-03-27T01:25:00.002+08:00

Listen up, bloggers! Been a long time since i'm back here blogging again. Tough times don't last, tough men does. Been through all ups and downs during this whole period of time. What've stayed deep in my mind would be something that i'll remember vividly in my mind. It'd been embraced into my soul and maybe even after my death. It all lies in me. It's my fault, i regretted.

Oh ya, not to end with it. I did bought a MONT BLANC wallet for mylove on the 14th feb, our 1 year anniversary. I threw him a surprises by hanging it outside cinelesiure on the railing itself. Ordering him to run from one end to another end and there he goes his present. (: Baby, i hope you really like it. Your wish did come true isn't it? LOL.

Soon t continue....

2007-09-30T00:36:00.001+08:00

Hi everyone. its been a long time ever since i am bk here blogging again. LOL.
at his house now. js came bk from suntec city. =D ate SWENSENS'S , and the food were yummy. i jus couldn't stop myself from eating. after which, accompanied him to have a puff. we talked and emotions came in. In short, i jus have to change. Brenda, U NEED TO CHANGE NOW. else it'll be too late. i'm always looking forward to a better r/s as compared to now. But i jus couldn't face the fact his feelings towards me seems to be faded. I'm SAD. i dont knw what to do, how to make him love me bk like last time? I'm so LOST. who can ans me? =( whatever it is, i jus hope to see both of us live long and have an everlasting r/s. I don't want it to end jus like this. NICHOLAS, I LOVE YOU. i jus dun wan him to leave me. i want him, and i really meant it.*WHAT CAN I DO TO MAKE YOU LOVE ME? * haish, i think i sholud keep myself packed in oreder not to think of hiim.not to tie him like a bird/ monkey.
Brenda, CHANGE NOW. )=

so yea, gtg.
goodnights and sweetdreams. =D
loves&huggs,BF.

2007-08-16T18:02:00.000+08:00

hey yo.(:
i'm here blogging again. Just came hm from school. Today, engineering material test makes me go crazy. made lots of careless mistake. ARGHH. i think i'm going to be dead man` maths on tue was also hell. i dknw what to do now. Mind seems so confused and irritated. my stupidity brings me to nowhere. I HATE IT!! :(
NO more A's i think.----> NO more $100. haish. ( fly away le)
i'm sorry B!
I'll try my very best just for U.

tml there's still Cprog, OMG. worst sub of all. Nevertheless, i going to strive for it yea? will blog again when my results reveal. Hopefully, it will be good to see it, else i think i'm going nuts.

okay2 ppl, i have to get myself changed to meet namira to study. No more slacking. Wait till exams over, then i'll have plenty of time with u guys. (: shall get going now. miss ya guys.

`signingoff_@6.71p.m*
`brenda*huggs_ (:

2007-08-10T12:15:00.000+08:00

hell0s ppl, back here again blogging in sch. (:
jus finished CRS test and wonder how i fair for it. feared that i didnt do well. ARGHH. but, its OVER. cant help thinking much. now waiting for E mtl which is starting at 1p.m/ i'm confused now. called hiim* jus now to ask him whether he would be joining my family for my sis b'day, he jus hack care and say he will confirm with me later. wonder what the ans from him to me would be like. ) : dun alk abt it alr, speechless*
In the midst of everything now and then.
oh ya, yest was SINGAPORE'S 42th NATIONAL DAY` (:
met up with liping, sinyi and bballers--> idy, jessica, eileen , lina & his* gf to watched fireworks.(:
it was an awesome one.everyone's like shouting their voice out. HAH. of coz,our grp too`
after which, went to marina square. headed 7-11 to buy ourself a blackcurrent vodka and apple nite.soon after, met some other friends, jiayan,wenting and all their grp of friends.

eating, talking and enjoying. but do not know where to go. So, decided to head home sweet home.(:
msged him* but he seems so unwilling to come and meet me. i gave up and continued wiith all my friends. After which, supposed to meet him ad macpherson, but i think lee( our managing director) drove hiim* to my block downstairs. He waited for me. I wanted to lend PSP from hiim* but he asked me to go his hse. i declined, but after which, i went. dunno why too` LOL.

Okay2 ppl, i think i shall blog sme other time when i'm free. mood seems rather bothered now.
so gtg. TC all ppl. (:

loves`
always lovin` hiim*
(:

2007-08-06T19:21:00.000+08:00

hellos peeps, pics taken` (:

during our way hm.

a hetic day today,though school ends early.

stayed back to study and revise for maths this coming tue.

ohh ya, having my dunno wad scholarship on monday.(holiday) (:

so guys outta dere, will be busy these few days mugging those exams for the final semester.

hope u guys uds.

2007-07-22T15:29:00.000+08:00

hell0s ppl, bk here again. (:
though life has changed drastically, but now, its smooth sailing.WOHHOOO.`
having back all my sisters and my bros back to my side is really an enjoyable one.
but, definately i would want to thank all my friends ard me who are willing to show care and concern for me when the very moment i could not jus let go of hiim. Nevertheless, its okay now. i'm FINE`(x i'm glad i living life back to my normal self again, although there are times my mind would wander off to his world.

went to DXO yest and was really an enjoyable one. having fun with my sisters` (x
but there's one thing i was very ashamed of is the time when i misunderstood abt some thing. the guys are damn pervetic man` makes me *puke*HAH. sisters kept making fun of me after which.pity sinyi for her thirsty and hungryness that leads her to become insane. ahas. we stroll down to 7-11 and wanted to get ourself a drink but it was closed.

accompany liping to serangoon slack` supposedly i didnt want to. But, its been a long time we meet up and share all our happy moments again. hah.think andy finds me irritating. always tok bk at him and order him to do things for me, coz i didn't pang seh him`even my sister. (: well, andy, i'm sorry. (x

okaay2` gtg now viewers.(;
live life to its fullest.
lovess....

2007-07-14T15:53:00.000+08:00

hell0s dearies`(:
i bk here again. life change drastically man`. how i wish im 100% in everything. looks,character,attitude and behaviour.dunno what's wrong btw us now. everthing drifted apart.really far is like miles away. :(
moodless, think no pint alr. jus wish hiim all the best ever in his career and life.life's still going on for me,will still be going on` though its difficult.life's just unfair.

2007-07-06T14:59:00.000+08:00

Hell0 viewers, i'm back here again.(:
yest, he came my hse to stay, and fetch me to school. so glad.HAHS.
anw, gt presentation today as a grp and i think i did badly. i cant debate back. so pissed and mad with me. But,its all over n0w! everything's OVER. PHEW!!! finally can get some rest.
school was still alright today. but totall cant uds a single thing what the Cprog teacher is talking about. catch no balls.(x gonna be dead man`there's still test coming up on next fri. shit* must go study soon.

okay2, viewers out dere, i gtg now.
sorry for the incomplete blog.

2007-07-04T21:26:00.000+08:00

Another day has arrived.Time flies.
Yest, when i reached home,my heart was just not in the mood to do anything. Feel like lying on my bed straight away. However, my mum nagged at me, the time i stepped on the doorsteps. It was partly my fault for excceding the amt which i should not,but i didnt learnt the mistakes from the previos time.So, here comes my dad. ARGHH.(earthquake) .As a result, my hp was confiscated.really, a diff day for me to live w/o hp, but i managed to. cheers`

Got maths lesson from 9 to 12.
Took back out maths test,hoping that i got full marks,but sad to say i only got 28/30.CARELESS_
Really not in the mood to do anything.HAISH. coz all the while, i've been gettin full mark,but nw, NO MORE.

Finally do not have to attend the SA lesson anymore. Completed all the w/s that's supposed to be done.Damn glad and happy.

Rushed home as i have an appointment.*rebonding*
The results was nt that bad overall, but it looks weird.sians 1/2.
And now,here's me blogging.
9.50p.m.signing OFF`
He's coming now! CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HIIM`Loves<3

2007-07-03T18:56:00.000+08:00

WOW. finally created a new blog.(: gees`
I can write all my ups and downs w/o complaining to anyone. (x
School was still alright when i stepped into the com rm and asked the teacher how much i got for my Cprog test,he answered: i help u to get a border line.(cries*) when i heard that,many questions began encircling my mind and started to think that he was hinting me that he marked it leniently.Think i must really pull up my socks alr. However, other subs were not that bad overall.Got 75 and above.HAHS.

CD lesson was damn fun.created jokes esp from the guys. I laughed till the teacher say i siao zarbo.haha.anw, the teacher, Mr Teng, treating our class to PIZZA next wk. In short, he's GD. (:

Namira,then told me she bought a new pants at MANGO at a discounted rate for only $29. So, i decide to go down and have a look as i've the intention to buy it. In the end, she remembered tt she'd promised to meet her friend.

I then started to msg him` while he's busy working. He did not replied. I felt worried and sad. I called him and he picked up. He told me he cant feel the vibration, i accepted. We talked for less than 5 mins and we hanged the phone. Dunno somehow, his feelings for me seems drifted very far apart, even the tone he msged me that were once so sweet. I asked him and he said 'NO'. But, i dunno. Last time,he's the only one that was willing to give in everything and anything to me,but now, N0 MORE. Does it shows that he don't love me anymore? :( Things changed drastically. i'm really confused,sad,demoralised, and i really dunno wad to do. Should i hang on this r/s? i asked myself. Nevertheless, i told myself,i'll try my best and prove them wrong.We gonna overcome all the obstacles that we faced and walk down the journey to our success.

After which, headed home sweet home.

2007-07-03T11:17:00.001+08:00

hello peeps`Welcome to my newly created bloggie! (: